While I was proud to have extended Operation Toy Soldier to total of five states so far in my recent Amazing Tour d’New England, my travel companion–aka, my politically-apathetic sister–wasted no time in ranting to our mother about it who, in turn, is again obsessing at my daring to utilize my First Amendment right to protest. (Thanks, sis. Really.) My mother feels that to protest diminishes morale and isn’t “supporting the troops.” As I’ve told her before, not wanting the troops to die is supporting the troops. No matter how many times I explain it, I’ve come to the conclusion that my family will never understand my peace activism. They’d rather I just blended in–just sat back and looked pretty and acted like a Good Little Godly Girl ™–not someone who goes to antiwar conferences and started her own peace protest involving leaving toy soldiers everywhere (see link above). They’d rather I was like my sister, perhaps–never appearing to have opinion of my own about anything, and never being able to have my own opinion because I don’t know the facts about anything outside my own tiny little life. They’d rather I was too weak to stand up for myself and my beliefs and, instead, either yielded in conversation or immediately began screaming so that the other person would not bother arguing because they want her to shut up so very badly.
No, I will not be like that. I cannot be like that. I’ve been watching the news obsessively since I was nine years old. I don’t even own a tv, but I still watch Democracy Now online almost every day. I read blogs, I read CNN’s website–I get around. I seem to hear about things an average of two days before it appears on MSN.com’s home page. A part of me truly hates when my routine of news-absorption is interrupted and I have to play catch-up. I hate not knowing what’s going on in the world around me. I don’t understand how anyone can so willfully choose to be ignorant. Give me the stories of people my sister has never heard of: the hate crime of an innocent Muslim woman, the war against women in Congo, the disappearing of the island of Tuvalu, all of that. All the stories of the “underdogs,” the stories that are truly important and generally ignored by the mainstream media. I’m okay with having never heard of most actors, even when others almost always look at me like I’m from another planet. Have you seen King Corn, Eulogy, or The Business of Being Born? Have you seen whatever fascinating documentary, indie flick, or foreign film I watched last? Do you like reading the Bible to find examples of how Jesus was a social activist liberal misunderstood by even his own disciples? Do you love Howard Zinn and Michael Moore? Did you talk your parents into voting for Ralph Nader when you were fifteen years old? All of that said, do you find this song to be an awesome rallying cry?
My sister thinks it’s a phase. My parents think I’ve “gotten in with the wrong crowd” because I want peace. It’s not a phase. I’m not going to wake up some day and think “you know what? Our country should go bomb the Cradle of Civilization for imperialistic reasons. Huzzah, I thirst for me some blood of dead Iraqi children!” As for the wrong crowd, I hang around social activist feminists, GLBT people, Quakers, peace activists, and history graduate students. We talk about Spongebob, Harriet Beecher Stowe, and enacting positive change in the world. Sometimes we have cookies.
Though my family might want to change me, I’m always going to be me and I’m always going to stand up for my convictions. Whether they like it or not, my family members were the ones who taught me this. Between my religious right-wing brother bullying other people into being afraid to voice opinions different than his and my mother’s lectures about organic gardening, the backwood’s movement, and how if homeschooling became illegal, she’d be arrested before the state put me back in public school, I learned to question everything because some people don’t want you to question anything. I cannot be some mindless robot with little sense of self. I must be me, and being me entails believing in peace.
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